Guess who's back in town?

He is.

I saw him yesterday. I had to take a second look to make sure that it was him. Gosh, it's been so long since I've seen that face, about 7 months, I think.

The weirdest part is, I saw him and that was it. No more giddiness, that OMG-I'm-gonna-jump-up-and-down-like-a-little-girl giddiness.

I couldn't help but laugh upon remembering how I was 7 months ago. I guess the thought of having a school girl crush made me so excited. I mean, being in a dead relationship at that time, you kinda forget how being giddy feels like.

I acted like a lil girl who gets excited at the thought of seeing a crush. All innocent. Fun. No malice. Of course, I never even wanted to be with him. He was just really cute. And friendly. And when he left, I moved on.

It was such a sweet funny childish memory. It made work more fun, somebody or something to look forward to. I'm glad I had it.

And thinking about it right now, I'm truly thankful that it's David who I'm with.

:)

He's gone... for real this time

I talked to a friend last night and he confirmed it for me that W has gone back to the East coast. He said that they started leaving the other day.

Oh well.

Bye eye candy... I'll surely miss your smile. I can perfectly picture out your gorgeous eyes and smile. I doubt I'll see him again.

I don't understand why it's making me sad. Ugh. I should just get over it.

I'm over it or him...

I think.

don't judge me

I've been thinking again, about this whole W thing. I know it's just a silly infatuation. A high school-ish crush of some sort.

All I want is to be happy, to be giddy, to feel butterflies in my stomach. You know that irresistable feeling that makes you smile. That's what I want. And thankfully, he has provided that. It makes my days exciting. Not to mention the days are limited. They're only here until middle of September. So, I'm maximizing all the "crush" fix I can have.

You might think I'm to shallow. Indeed, I am. But so what? Haven't you been once here? Haven't you had the same feeling? If not, well, you totally missed out on a lot.

I've never ever felt this way for such a long time. The last time was so long ago... Like back on my 3rd year in college. Back when somebody really made my days brighter, sunnier and makes my stomach do full sommersault.

So I'm trying to cherish all these fleeting moments and fleeting emotions... I know it's nothing permanent.

All the pain, frustration and disappointment are, for now, at the back burner.

There are lots of crazy things going in my life right now, but this giddy feeling at the sight of him makes me believe that I still have the reason to be happy and smile.

He's gone...

Forget it!

I just saw him. Like 5 minutes ago. Just talked to him, too.

Holy cow.

W is.

I haven't seen him for days since the day after I posted my really juvenile entry.

He's probably gone. I've acquired more information from my Store Manager (ha! beat that!) that he's stationed somewhere in the East Coast.

So there, my eye candy has probably left town. I'm so used to the Navy coming and going, in and out of this town. Some of them come here for special training, it takes weeks or months, depending on what they're doing...

Bye eye candy... I'll surely miss your smile. Oh. My. God. I can perfectly picture out your gorgeous eyes and smile. :)

I doubt I'll see him again.

Damn you, Starbucks. Must you have this utterly nauseating "At Last" song playing in the background while I'm writing this entry. No offense, I love this song. But for some stupid reason, it's making me feel sad. I'm highly emotional. I wonder if I'm seriously okay.

Really Juvenile

I know this is going to sound stupid but I'll blog it anyway...

I was at work in Starbucks assigned at the drive thru. So there was a customer at the window and just after I took their order and was about to set the cup down for the queue of drinks to be made, I saw my crush.

He's a really cute cute guy, very buff, really beautiful eyes. AND he was smiling at me.

To my own clumsiness and very much Hollywood-ish, I dropped the cup and stared at him like an idiot. Great job, yay me.

He's quite a regular. He comes during evenings and he gets tea. He is in the Navy and I know he loves to swim. Also, I'm quite sure that a cutie like him must have/ should have a girlfriend.

Not until last night did I ask him what his name was. Very sleek and subtle, of course.

So now, I know that his name is W and he's a HOTTIE, really. He really made my night. haha. Just by showing up for a grande Passion Tea Lemonade. How pathetic can you get, huh? *lol*