pardon the weirdness of it all

I'm trying to re-vamp my layout and I'm doing it really slow...

so pardon me.

I promise, it'll be for the good.

xox,

I've been gone for quite some time, although I've been reading blogs silently (meaning, I don't exactly leave a comment).

In such amount of time, so much has happened. Some things are worth blogging, some aren't.

Well, over the weekend, I got something that's worth blogging for.

I quit my job as a barista at Starbucks.

It was a hard decision to make but at some point in our lives, we have to stand up for ourselves and let people know that we are not putting up with anything less than we deserve.I really love being a barista. It was a humbling experience and it was a great adventure. It helped me a lot and as much as it did, I also know that I don't owe anybody anything.

It just simply has to end. No more unnecessary stress. No more double standards. All of which I took for a year, that's how much I love what I was doing but then I cannot simply allow a person to have that control all over me, nor to give an implification that I'm a liar.

What's funny is that even as I'm walking out the door, people still tend to blame me, calling it a selfish action. But then, who really cares? It's over. They can all suck it, for all I care.

And there quite a few casualties, there was a friendship that's been shattered and a reputation getting slandered.

Just as I had choice to walk away, they have the choice to put their foot down and say "No".

In the end, it's all up to you to get over it or put up with it.

Just letting it all out

I'm an feeling rather dejected right now.

How can half an hour of somebody's time be so hard to ask?It's not like they were working or doing anything important other than sleeping.

How can somebody not see the importance of being on time, of making sure that the half an hour gets maximized because that's all you got for the day?

I guess it's just me making a big deal out of nothing. Or making too much of an effort? Am I the only one who cares?

Or do things really change as time goes by?

Turn of the tide?

Does anybody get annoyed of the "best foot forward tactic" or is it just me?

Honestly, it truely disgusts me. When a man tries to woo you, he'd spend all his time (and some of his money, if not most) on you.For what? To get a really good impression.

Female species who are easily attracted to sweet gestures would easily fall for it, willingly or unwillingly. Hoping against the odds that things will stay the same. The sane and logical part of you says, nope it won't. But the romantic and stupid side says it will.

Anyway, I'm just ranting. I'm not saying that is the situation I'm in right now. But I feel like that's what's happening.

Who knows what exactly it is. All I know is I'm not liking it. at. all.