El Nido, Palawan

Lately, I've been having this wanderlust and thus browsing spots in Philippines that I'd want to go to when I go home to visit (who knows when).

I remembered my uncle, who's an engineer, worked in El Nido, Palawan years ago for a construction project.

I did my research online and this is what I found.

El Nido, Palawan is paradise! I couldn't believe how far some Filipinos would go for a relaxing vacation when you don't even need a passport to visit El Nido.

I can't wait to go there. I'm making this a priority! Lol.

Check these links and these photos, can you blame me?

Photos from www.elnidopalawan.com

Here's a slide show I found online too!

Guess who's back in town?

He is.

I saw him yesterday. I had to take a second look to make sure that it was him. Gosh, it's been so long since I've seen that face, about 7 months, I think.

The weirdest part is, I saw him and that was it. No more giddiness, that OMG-I'm-gonna-jump-up-and-down-like-a-little-girl giddiness.

I couldn't help but laugh upon remembering how I was 7 months ago. I guess the thought of having a school girl crush made me so excited. I mean, being in a dead relationship at that time, you kinda forget how being giddy feels like.

I acted like a lil girl who gets excited at the thought of seeing a crush. All innocent. Fun. No malice. Of course, I never even wanted to be with him. He was just really cute. And friendly. And when he left, I moved on.

It was such a sweet funny childish memory. It made work more fun, somebody or something to look forward to. I'm glad I had it.

And thinking about it right now, I'm truly thankful that it's David who I'm with.

:)

My most favorite quote as long as I live...

There are times when I needed to be reminded that even though relationships are not a bed of roses, it's a risk worth taking. Everytime I look at this ring on my finger, I get reminded of how blessed I am to have found an absolutely amazing guy who isn't perfect, but is perfectly meant for me :)

And that I deserve to be happy. :)

Something is wrong with me

I could not elaborate on what it is because of privacy issues... I wish I could though.

It's scaring me and making me feel bad as a person, as a woman. It's making me feel like I'm not normal.

Sometimes, I'd look at a person and I'd be asking myself, "Why can't I just be like them?". I realize that it's wrong to compare oneself to others, but in this situation, I couldn't help myself.

I am even wishing now that I'd be the same way as I am before. Detached. Too detached to even entertain the thought.

But I know that if I get into that mode, I'd be harming a relationship that I've learned to norture, work on and care for.

I'm at a cross roads here and I'm not sure which path to take. All I know is something is wrong with me and I'm scared. I feel awful, ashamed and sick.